I can try if it's possible

If you want to get somewhere you have to know where you want to go and how to get there. Then never, never, never give up.

---- Norman Vincent Peale

NaNoWriMo is impossible. more or less 46k words in two days will not cut it. Why can't it be two months? I need cheering up. Glee is my only cure. I have no determination what so ever. Well, I only have 2% determination, other 98% is failure. Anyone else failed like me? I cannot continue and I blame my procrastination self. I cannot get over it.

My NaNoWriMo failure reminds me of possibly 25% of the NaNoWriMos who could possible fall out of reach of the goal of 50,000 words. It also reminds me of the hike that I did in year 7. Our first camp of high school, where we went to Camp Sommerset. My group (our teacher who came with us, was a not terribly smart or dumb Science teacher and our instructor was suppositly 'flirting' with her) climbed about 2km more than the other three groups (the size of my year 7 has been sort of the same with my year 9 grade. Year 7 year group was 73 while this year it was 67-68). I think it 12-16k hike or something ridiculous like that. It seems that my group for camp has no one that I am really good friends with and somehow, I hate my group at the end of camp.

Play rehersal was so terrible and unimaginable. On Tuesday is our opening night. While the teachers focus on my cast and not the other cast who has no real run through, I'm fearing if the other cast is ready for opening night. I should be reading over my lines but I HATE THEM WITH A PASHION AND MY PROCRASTINATIONAL SELF IS TAKING OVER! Sorry for caps lock, I'm frustrated with myself and I need to redo myself. Hardcore.

School is nearly over. With just about over two weeks left, I am REALLY looking forward to pretty much two months of summer holidays. Apart from moving away to another location of my area, I am trying to hang with friends. I need to be social. Kind of like this morning. I met a girl who goes to one of the local high schools in my region. We met on the station and we talk. She finished year 12 and she is extreamly nice. She just came and started talking, she loves to make friends.

Love
DoomAngelKitty

No Chance what so ever

They made a statue of us
And it put it on a mountain top
Now tourists come and stare at us
Blow bubbles with their gum
Take photographs have fun, have fun
---- "Us" by Regina Spektor

Yes, my phycic ability of telling my NaNoWriMo future is that, I will not win. What so ever. Period. No matter what everyone says, I am not going to win. This is my worst NaNoWriMo, ever. Last time I had roughly 13k. Now at 4k and two days left with my play (my play starts Tuesday night and we are not ready, well, not quite anyway).

Well, I think I am going to put my NaNoWriMo novel in the "bin of maybe-but-not-quite-finishing-in-the-near-future". Has anyone done that before? Like went back to your NaNoWriMo a few years back then finished it? Or done their novel... again... in NaNoWriMo the very next year? Does anyone have any advice for NaNo-wannabies?

With the play that I've (I think) I talk in my past blogs, well we only got our costumes today. The sets aren't quite (as far as I see as an actress/actor) ready. People know either very little lines, 50% or at the least 75% of their lines. For me, I know 75% of my lines. T.T Yeah, I've been procrastinating too much, NaNoWriMo procrastination/worrying, or my work load. This is not going to be a "walk in Hogwarts grounds", is it?

Love
DoomAngelKitty

I'll write you a bad romance

I want your love and

I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
---"Bad Romance" by Lady GaGa

It's almost the end of NaNoWriMo and the reach to 50,000 words seem so impossible for me. I decided today by 3pm, I'll write 6,535 words. Then from 3:30 pm to 8:30, I'll write 6,600 words. Big writting session here, isn't it? I am going to attempt to finish, no matter what. Hehe, kind of like Harry when he versus Voldemort in Book 7.

I have finished Loving Richard Feynman by Penny Tangey. It's about 15 year old, science/maths nerd girl called Catherine and how she writes to the dead scientist Richard Feynman. The adventures on how she surives a year and how she reacts to her parents divorce, Felix and Richard Feynman 's secrets that she didn't know about.

As a website tells it, here is a summery:

"Dear Professor Feynman, Last week Dad bought me a poster of you for my birthday. I hung it up on my wall, perpendicularly adjacent to my desk. It is one of the best presents I have ever received. A month ago, I had never even heard of you, which is embarrassing now I know how important you are. It was my dad who first mentioned you. I was worried about some dumb thing that happened at school. We were discussing the ethics of stem cell research in Social Studies. I had a few points to make on the subject. After I’d been talking for a while I became aware that people in the class were giggling. I looked up and everyone was staring at me like I was a raving idiot. I suddenly realised that I had been getting a bit overexcited, waving my arms and talking too loudly. When I told Dad how humiliated I was he said, ‘In the words of Richard Feynman: What do you care what other people think?’

Catherine is 15, in Year 10 and is a nerd. Not that she thinks the title ‘nerd’ is an insult. Far from it. She wears that badge with pride, but it’s about the only part of her life that she’s sure about. The poster of physicist Richard Feynman becomes a focus in her life and she writes to him. Through the letters, she tries to sort out her emotions, her responses by speculating what he would do in the same situation. She reads a book about Feynman and is inspired. Meanwhile, relationships at school are a mystery she struggles to unravel. It seems that her motives are always misinterpreted. Writing to Richard gives her opportunities to ‘replay’ what’s happened at school, even though she knows he’s dead. A maths competition brings together Catherine, her friend Sophie, Harry (one of the ferals) and new annoying boy, Felix. As the maths competition approaches, Catherine must re-examine her assessments of people close to her."

I finished majority of the book at play rehersal. In which case was annoyingest play rehersal, ever. 40 degrees outside, boiling hot, several dance routines, and walking up and down from the shops near my school. I know 75% of my lines and my first perfomance (I'm in the Blue Cast) is on the 2nd December, even though opening night is on the 1st December. The play goes to the 5th December. Great.... -sadness-

Reading: New Moon (Stephanie Meyer) & Heaven's net is Wide (Lian Hearn)
Watching: Oprah
NaNoWriMo:
Word Count: 4,584
Daily Left: 13,134
Total "Left": 45,416

Love
DoomAngelKitty

Welcome to my Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
-"Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan

Welcome to my life of NaNoWriMo, worrying about bushfires and school. The bush fire season has already started and my state has the worst bushfires seen in 100 years. About roughly 80 or so bushfires, some in towns generally sort of close (life 5-10 towns away) from where I live. Mum was worried so she pretty much got the photos in boxes, so we can call a taxi (because she had her operation on her akeles attendant or however you spell it and we don't own a car) and get out of here. I don't want to loose my home of 14 years (we moved in my house when I was 9 months old) because there is loverly memories and 14 years of belongings. This is why I dislike Australia, really hot and have so many bushfires or flood, I lost count. T.T

NaNoWriMo 2009 is nearly over for Australia, 8 more days. I have 4,380 words, so my daily count is 5,702 words per day. Wow, this will be interesting for me to finish. Previously I had 13,000 words last year (it was my first year), now I'm tempted on finishing it. I'm currently doing Word Wars, next year hopefully I can mentor a new NaNo-er. Good job isn't it? Mentoring someone could affect in a small way. But still, you have a good feeling inside.

I still have to do:

1. My forgotten PDH homework.
2. NaNoWriMo - 5,702 words
3. Memorise my words for the play.
4. Japanese Study for a quiz tomorrow.
5. Still, Japanese study for assessment task on Friday.
6. Maths assessment.

6 things to do in 6 days. T.T -imatates cave people- "Me no likey". Haha, I got to say, I should pace myself and get some energy drink to keep me awake. I don't like those energy drinks like V or Red Bull, maybe when I do my HSC and start studying my pants off. I am not able to fully appreciate Tea or Coffee (after nearly two weeks in Japan, I am not a big fan of Green Tea).

Reading: New Moon (Stephanie Meyer), Loving Richard Feynman (Penny Tangey) and Heaven's net is Wide (Lian Hearn)
Watching: News
Word Count: 4,380
Daily "Left": 5,702
Overall "Left": 45,620

Love
DoomAngelKitty

Procrastinating is not a good medicine.

"Lookin' at , lookin' at, lookin' at me,
Look at that, look at how they're are lookin' at me,
Eyes all sticky like honey on bees,
Look at that, look at how they're lookin' at me"
--- "Chllin'" by Wale feat. Lady GaGa

As I try and do my half of my Geography assessment that is due tomorrow, study for a quiz on Japanese, do my forgotten PDH (Personal Development and Health) and NaNoWriMo, I should advoid, at all cost of procrastination. After it's not good if:

1. You are doing NaNoWriMo and your word count is 4,380 words.
2. You have a Geography assessment due tomorrow.
3. Wind of the Willows - lines need to be learnt.
4. Japanese assessment - STUDY
5. Maths assessment task - find the forgotten sheet.
6. Learn song for the Christmas concert in three weeks time.
   

Then I realise, after much thought, why on earth am I forcing myself to do all of these things? Am I that crazy to do NaNoWriMo when I should do it after I finish school in less than three years time? Are all the teachers torturing us with assessments that goes for year ten coursework mark in our report? Is everyone else crazy while I'm the only sane one here?

Apart from me being crazy and phycopathic, I felt horribly alone in Japanese. Apart from my friend who is the only other girl in my year doing Japanese, me being with three guys for an hour doing our "usual" (if you call it usual) things to our teacher. So a normal, "perfect" lesson. Well, I was alone in Japanese, I hardly talk and I just felt like I was day dreaming, all lesson. I hardly answer anything, just did my own work.

Love
DoomAngelKitty

What is the Right thing to do?

My Extended Response to "What is the Right ting to do?" asked by Socrates:

What is the right thing to do? asked by the Philosopher Socrates asks us the question what is right and what is wrong.
What is the right thing to do if you are forced to kill one of your family members or kill four innocent people that you never met? What is the right thing to do if you had a choice to kill your family or you have to be killed?
My opinion to these following questions that relates to Philosopher Socrates question What is right? depends on one or the other side of these questions. What is the right thing to do if you are forced to kill one of your family members or kill four innocent people that you never met? depends if you see it that you can keep your family member or you kill your family member and keep alive four innocent people that can be useful more in society than just one person. What is the right thing to do if you had a choice to kill your family or you have to be killed? depends on if you want your family to live, and do things to help the society or kill your family and you can live on while you weep for the loss of your family. You have to see both sides and both sides could be the right thing to do.
Other philosophers like Plato (one of Socrates students) linked good with just is related to the person who is pure. Therefore good/just is emotional part of the state, when a normal man wants to be good as possible, he has to be purified. Plato also said that for being good in the material world is beyond this material world: for the best we can do is only a striving towards the perfect goodness that exists in the changeless, eternal world of the forms that lies beyond our material existence. (Quoted from Plutos book Republic). In the Republic, Plato broadens on good and just on the questions asked by Socrates to his friends (What is a good ruler?, What is justice?, and What constitutes a just state?).
So what is good or what is right depends on which side that you look at. Nothing is the right or the wrong thing to do.

Twilight vs Harry Potter - War between Fantasy Adventure and Fantasy Romance.

You know the whole story. MTV created this war between a poor written cliched book and a classic all time book. So which side are you on or are you just a Switzerland person?

I'm defiantly on the Harry Potter side (if Twilight was original and better written, then maybe I would be Switzerland). First things first, why Harry Potter than Twilight or Switzerland? Okay, Harry Potter is ORIGINAL last time I checked (been the fan since the first movie, when I was age 6 or 7 then started reading the books in Spring 2005). Twilight well, it;s cliched. A human girl falls in love with a vampire. Does this sound fimillar to you? Sounds like The Vampire Diaries or something along those lines. Why not Switzerland? It's because that Steph is not a very good writer. She needs to read a WIDE RANGE of Fantasy novels and STUDY her chosen topic (a.k.a in this instance Vampires). Not all vampires are cute, handsome, pretty etc like Edward. They CAN be ugly, stupid, imperfect etc.

Secondly, Why are you fighting a war between a book that you read and the other you have not? I can make a judgment on this. I read up to chapter 7 or 9 in Twilight. I keep stopping and starting because all it's about is how Bella falls in love with him and how he is so bloody beautiful and perfect. He saved her from the car, big deal. That was the only scene I enjoyed and she should of die really. Or just get herself in a coma and knock herself saying Edward is an ugly person.

Thirdly who seriously wants a stalker, forceful, idiotic, perfect boyfriend? He basically lies to her, he watches her in a sleep (if my boyfriend did that, he'll be dead), she is on a bloody run because he made her fall in love with him, he knows where the hell she is, he thinks he's "perfect" (she agrees as well), who wanted a forceful boyfriend anyway? Surely, if I have forceful, idiotic, perfect, stalker boyfriend, I'll be living on the other side of Australia by now.

Fourthly. what girls learn from this "twilight" book?

a) That they have to be useless and stupid and have no lives while having a stalker, idiotic, forceful, perfect boyfriend. All my ex boyfriends/ex or current crushes of mine are red heads, well built or just on the chubby side, older or younger, imperfect, nerdy, sporty, musically/performing talented people. See? They have all have FLAWS. Do you know what flaws is or do I have to write out a meaning for it?

b) Guys can treat girls with much disrespect as possible. THANK YOU Bella for setting back 100 years for treating females badly.

c) Romance is finding a perfect, Gary Stud guy.

With Harry Potter I learned that:

a) Honesty is not always the best policy.
b) Friends are there for you!
c) Love can be all shapes and sizes (e.g Dumbledore's gay lifestyle)
d) Have courage.
e) Study and know what your up against.

This is my opinion.

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Why the hell am I writing 7,000 words today and procrastinating?

This street continued to run ahead
It should have been written in a map
but I can't find the town
and as I turned around to look at that place
the scenery changed
This world is our last electro world
The ground is shivering and broken,
and the sun has fallen from the sky lightly into my hand
The truth, above all, has been recognized
I'll leave the world's plan behind in this letter
---"Electro World" by Perfume

I ask myself at 4:30 pm after I came home from school (on the magical school bus), why am I writing 7,000 words (somedays 8,000 words, 7,500 words and 9,500 words). At the end, roughly at 29th November, I'll writen 83,000 words plus my original 3,760 words. So overall, 86,760 words, 36,760 words over my finishing mark.

Procrastination isn't helping me much. Facebook, Blogger and on YouTube while I'm writing this, is not a good start to my 7,000 word writing. I should of done it in my Science class when we were watching a video about ecosystems and the food chain (even though it lasted 10 minutes). What are some good ways of me stop procrastinating today and write 7,000 words?

My Christmas Concert is soon approcahing so I was cutting down to songs that I can sing and sing it at the Concert. The list goes down to:

1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sG_3IiSV_U ---> "Electro World" by Perfume
2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ggTiV5ETRQ4 ---> "Two for My Seconds" by Operator Please
3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xPsZVTIygA ---> "Green Eyed World" by The Blips feat. Amiel
4. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRp6Wl_9lKo ---> "These Days are Dark" by Harry and the Potters
5. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wRkoGKQ8qQ ---> "Love Story" by Taylor Swift

So which one do you think I should sing? I only have four weeks from Thursday to learn this song. I asked one of my friends from Russia what she thinks, she has yet to reply to it though. I haven't even asked my school friends though. I should even.

Love
DoomAngelKitty

Where the hell is the normal people in the world?

"The World is Beautiful,
Just look around you,
The World is Beautiful
Just look at your friends"
--- "These Days are Dark" by Harry and the Potters

As I read magazines and watch TV, I wonder "Where the hell is all the normal people?". They are really thin, going on drugs, drinking WAY too much booze and crash their car, have double standards when it comes to jail time and way more other things. What is up with the world? Why can't anyone appreciate people who do something productive unlike Paris Hilton?

I read an article that shows Daniel Radcliffe "doing drugs". A 20 year old guy doing drugs. How many of you people in the world, knows someone who was doing drugs who is 20 years old, younger or older? Isn't this "normal" for people to be curious? Or is it just a hushed subject to talk about? Is drugs, a hushed subject if you do it, like being homosexual/transgendered/bisexual/etc? Is it really "wrong" to do it? Do you have any morals of doing drugs? Aren't we all doing drugs in a way? Medical drugs for health or drugs that you just do it for fun or for curiousty.

Where the hell is the normal people in the world? Am I the only one in the world that thinks that the world is crashing down to the ground because they are spinning out of control because their meaning of "normal" isn't right? Everyone is driving me nuts. Do you think so?

Love
DoomAngelKitty

Procastination on NaNoWriMo isn't gopod for your NaNoWriMo Health

As I was thinking after my 25k or so words that I have to catch up to NaNoWriMo standards, I was thinking about "What is a good NaNoWriMo writer?" "How can a perfect NaNoWriMo writer can juggle reality with the 50k words set in a month?" "Does the writer even have a real life outside the 50k word boarder?" "Where does this perfect NaNoWriMo writer live?". I have thought and have come out of the conclusion, a few ridiculous answers.

1. The perfect writer doesn't have any social life in November.
Conclusion: The perfect NaNoWriMo writer, somewhere in the world, has a hybernation in the month of November, so he/she can write 50k in a month, WITH THEIR EYES CLOSED!

2. The perfect writer has two brains, one of the north hemisphere and one in the south.
Conclusion: The perfect NaNoWriMo writer could be like the English Empire, "The sun never sets in the English Empire". (Note to self: Disaproves that Australia is still apart of the English Empire, in a way)

3. The perfect writer is just typing "DoomAngelKitty is awesome" over and over again.
Conclusion: The writer could be cheating and writing rubbish (or perfectly good answer of "DoomAngelKitty is awesome") over and over again to make to the 50k word mark. Therefore, this writer is not perfect but a lying, cheating Son of a Banshee (see Wizard Swears).

4. The perfect writer has drank cofee/tea/Coke/V/Red Bull or some energy drink to write continuesly until she/he finished 50k words.
Conclusion: It's the scientific fact that your energy drink can motivate you.

5. The writer has no procastionation in their system.
Conclusion: Therefore the writer has no Facebook, Bebo, YouTube, Myspace in their systems.

5 good answers to my questions. Are you, the NaNo writer are any of these 5 answers? Or all five? I'm sure, I am never the 5 (unless it calls in desperate measures). I mean seriously, why would in 16 days, I have to cheat? I would admit deafeat gracefully and try again next year. No procastionation, no nothing.

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DoomAngelKitty

NaNoWriMo is my abuse same with other things in my life

Word Count: 2,280
Daily "Left": 7,727
Total "Left": 47,720

NaNoWriMo has been annoying me. Abusing my time manegment and my social life. I've a History assessment due on Thursday and my sister is pretty much claiming the only internet object in the house to do her assessment which is due on Monday. Whatever happened to time manegment? Is it dead already or we all lost it?

Back to NaNoWriMo. I've introduced to a lot of people to why on earth I'm writing in my spare time. 50,000 words in a month. They think it's impossible. I think it is possible and also my abuse at the same time. Year nine doesn't like NaNoWriMo what so ever. The play is drawing near and I have to deal with learning lines and NaNoWriMo. Lucky next year I don't have to deal with the Year 7/8/9 play, but the Year 10 Certificate (THAT will be interesting. Studying and NaNoWriMo at the same time).

History excursion was HELL! We didn't learn anything Historical about World War One and nothing Geographical. So now I have to do an assessment about it. I don't have a printer at home (because it doesn't like my sister's laptop) and the printing thing at school takes YONKES to set up and print. WHY CAN'T IT BE SIMPLE?!?

Again, with the History Assessment, I might either have to either write a note saying can I send the assessment by email or can I write it hand out (that will be hard due to I have phtos on a digital camera). HOPEFULLY it will work out. When I say hopefully, I mean praying to the gods. Going to a school that prizes marks is not hevean, at all. More like my abuse (contains everything I hate biting back, NaNoWriMo and everything about school work).

Happy: Luna Park on Friday
Sad: Play Rehursal
Listening: Use Somebody by Kings of Leon
Reading: Twilight

LOVE
DoomAngelKitty

NaNoWriMo + Golden Compass + School juggling + Everything in between = Life

Word Count: 1,659
Left: 1,675
What's "left": 48,341

NaNoWriMo is very stressing. I gotten to 1,659 words and I'm failing miserably still. As like the ugg man said, "Me me no likely likey". I was looking at other people's word counts, they are like in the 10 thousands or 5+ thousands. I am really petrified for my innocence and my limitations compare to these people. Firstly, I have school. Secondly, I can stand long when I go on the competer (I can got for about two hours but after that, I can't stand it. Thirdly, homework and life. I still have a life. Fourthly, I go to bed at 9:30 pm. School is really hard to do it as well, me having to hang with friends in the hot spring's sun outside, SOCIALIZING! Also with homework and teachers getting scared when we go on excursions so they HAVE TO give us 50 million pages of homework.

I am reading the first book of the Golden Compass, Northen Lights. My friend was shocked that I haven't read the books. So now I am planing to read the books. Hopefully the books are better than the movies, for everyone's sake, including Dobby's.

School is hell man. Except for the part that ALL YEAR 7 STUDENTS ARE ON CAMP! Which is heaps good cause I don't have to see girls who wear 50 million layers of make up that makes them look like panda bears or racoons and wear their skirt like a piece of underwear. Canberra will be hard cause it's two hours or so driving there, whole day going to AIS and War Memorial and other places and staying the night there. I dunno what to do on the bus with writing since I get dizzy reading books or writing.

Happy: Canberra
Sad: Failing NaNoWriMo
Listening to: N/A
Reading: Twilight

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DoomAngelKitty

Procastination + School + NaNoWriMo + Library books + Canberra trip = One messy month/week

Word Count: 985
Daily "Left": 2,349
What's "left": 49,015

Procastination is the worst thing happening to me. I'm suppose to be doing the NaNoWriMo and it's going really, really badly. Since I'm using my sister's laptop and mine is getting fixed (seriously since I came back on the 14th Ocotber it's getting fixed for goodness how long) because of a broken battery pack. I WISH I HAD LONGER WITH NANOWRIMO! I WISH MY LAPTOP WASN'T GETTING FIXED! -stops off- Seriously, why the heck does it have to break now, especially in November of all months.

School is getting really, really, irriating. Who wouldn't agree? No matter what year of High School, you think school is irrating. Going to school from 8:45 am till 3:20 pm (6 hrs 35 minutes). Before school waking up at 6:30am leaving home at 7:30am to catch a bus 1km or so away (10 min walk) and waiting for 20minutes. Then after school, waiting for half an hour for your bus, then have a 45 minute bus trip. NOT GOOD AT ALL!

NaNoWriMo, like I said, I need have less procastination. My plan is I put my story onto my iPod Nano (if you are wondering, I have a 4th generation Green iPod nano) and write my story on a piece of paper then once I get home I type up the story I wrote and update my word count. Has anyone thought of that idea? For all you High Schoolers (or Middle Schoolers) or University students thought of putting their story on their iPods and writing it on a piece of paper like my idea?

While I have NaNoWriMo to worry about, I have borrowed two library books. New Moon by Stephanie Meyer and this other book. Trust me, as since I am anti-Twilighter I don't know why I am reading this saga. IT'S LIKE CHILD ABUSE! SERIOUSLY! NO KIDDING WHAT SO EVER! I'm going to finish the saga, and if I am up to the point of burning the books (in the memory of the trees who made them), I will. No lie.

Canberra is this Thursday and Friday. I am so bringing two bags (one full of clothes, even though they are over night) and the other is just my day pack. I did for my Art Camp (which was overnight and it took FOREVER to get to Nowra) and I survived. I am doing my whole iPod + NaNoWriMo thing so I won't fall behind.

Happy: Canberra trip
Sad: Maths homework and too much procastination
Listening: Blue Water High (TV)
Reading: Twilight