Summer love has never been so bitter

"No one is afraid of heights. They're afraid of falling.
No one is afraid of swimming. They're afraid of drowning.
No one is afraid of love. They're afraid of rejection."

Summer is full of surprises. I'm in love with someone that I shouldn't be in love with and this made it even worse when I watched New Moon today with my mum. It was kind of like Bella "falling in love" with Jacob or Bella standing by her man, Edward. Humans can't fall in love with werewolves or vampires (also, it's impossible because neither of them exists). I can't fall in love with this person because of boundaries and how it is "not right". Doesn't this suck? I hate love but doesn't everyone hate love? Doesn't everyone hate getting their heart into this mess and getting their heart broken into different pieces? As this quote says ("What happens when he's your prince charming but you're not his Cinderella?"), what happens if we meet the right guy/girl who we could spend our whole entire lives with but it turns out that special guy/girl will not spend their entire lives with you (therefore, they don't love you in return). How do we feel as individuals or as a group of people who have witness their first heartbreak? Do we feel as if our lives will stop in the middle of time? Do we feel sadness? Do we feel as if we can go on, knowing that we are going to find our Romeo or Prince Charming? Do we gain from the experience and use the experience on the next girl/guy coming into our lives? Love is the most craziest thing ever to us humans. We don't know how to stop falling in love, let alone how we got there in the first place.

I am currently uploading photos onto my MySpace account. I'm uploading my play photos that I haven't put on Facebook (wow, I cannot believe that I said that). I am trying to be more active on MySpace and therefore I'm adding a new resolution, (4. or 5. Be more active on MySpace). It probably going to be a huge failure, but I'm giving it a shot. Hey, that's the whole point of New Year's Resolutions. You have fun in them while trying something that you previously haven't tried before. Right?

Twitter. Yes I said the second T-word (the first is Twihard. Ooops, going to get in trouble -laughs-). I'm going to be sort of more educated and have an educated answer to my Twitter account. Instead of the loser people or celebrities using Twitter as a biographic story of their lives, every fluffing moment in their lives, I'll be using it for educational/fun/interesting manner. I'm using it in a boring manner. Well, just for stupidity only. Haha, love stupidity in the 21st Century?

Logging off
DoomAngelKitty

I'll write you a bad romance

I want your love and

I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
---"Bad Romance" by Lady GaGa

It's almost the end of NaNoWriMo and the reach to 50,000 words seem so impossible for me. I decided today by 3pm, I'll write 6,535 words. Then from 3:30 pm to 8:30, I'll write 6,600 words. Big writting session here, isn't it? I am going to attempt to finish, no matter what. Hehe, kind of like Harry when he versus Voldemort in Book 7.

I have finished Loving Richard Feynman by Penny Tangey. It's about 15 year old, science/maths nerd girl called Catherine and how she writes to the dead scientist Richard Feynman. The adventures on how she surives a year and how she reacts to her parents divorce, Felix and Richard Feynman 's secrets that she didn't know about.

As a website tells it, here is a summery:

"Dear Professor Feynman, Last week Dad bought me a poster of you for my birthday. I hung it up on my wall, perpendicularly adjacent to my desk. It is one of the best presents I have ever received. A month ago, I had never even heard of you, which is embarrassing now I know how important you are. It was my dad who first mentioned you. I was worried about some dumb thing that happened at school. We were discussing the ethics of stem cell research in Social Studies. I had a few points to make on the subject. After I’d been talking for a while I became aware that people in the class were giggling. I looked up and everyone was staring at me like I was a raving idiot. I suddenly realised that I had been getting a bit overexcited, waving my arms and talking too loudly. When I told Dad how humiliated I was he said, ‘In the words of Richard Feynman: What do you care what other people think?’

Catherine is 15, in Year 10 and is a nerd. Not that she thinks the title ‘nerd’ is an insult. Far from it. She wears that badge with pride, but it’s about the only part of her life that she’s sure about. The poster of physicist Richard Feynman becomes a focus in her life and she writes to him. Through the letters, she tries to sort out her emotions, her responses by speculating what he would do in the same situation. She reads a book about Feynman and is inspired. Meanwhile, relationships at school are a mystery she struggles to unravel. It seems that her motives are always misinterpreted. Writing to Richard gives her opportunities to ‘replay’ what’s happened at school, even though she knows he’s dead. A maths competition brings together Catherine, her friend Sophie, Harry (one of the ferals) and new annoying boy, Felix. As the maths competition approaches, Catherine must re-examine her assessments of people close to her."

I finished majority of the book at play rehersal. In which case was annoyingest play rehersal, ever. 40 degrees outside, boiling hot, several dance routines, and walking up and down from the shops near my school. I know 75% of my lines and my first perfomance (I'm in the Blue Cast) is on the 2nd December, even though opening night is on the 1st December. The play goes to the 5th December. Great.... -sadness-

Reading: New Moon (Stephanie Meyer) & Heaven's net is Wide (Lian Hearn)
Watching: Oprah
NaNoWriMo:
Word Count: 4,584
Daily Left: 13,134
Total "Left": 45,416

Love
DoomAngelKitty

Welcome to my Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
-"Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan

Welcome to my life of NaNoWriMo, worrying about bushfires and school. The bush fire season has already started and my state has the worst bushfires seen in 100 years. About roughly 80 or so bushfires, some in towns generally sort of close (life 5-10 towns away) from where I live. Mum was worried so she pretty much got the photos in boxes, so we can call a taxi (because she had her operation on her akeles attendant or however you spell it and we don't own a car) and get out of here. I don't want to loose my home of 14 years (we moved in my house when I was 9 months old) because there is loverly memories and 14 years of belongings. This is why I dislike Australia, really hot and have so many bushfires or flood, I lost count. T.T

NaNoWriMo 2009 is nearly over for Australia, 8 more days. I have 4,380 words, so my daily count is 5,702 words per day. Wow, this will be interesting for me to finish. Previously I had 13,000 words last year (it was my first year), now I'm tempted on finishing it. I'm currently doing Word Wars, next year hopefully I can mentor a new NaNo-er. Good job isn't it? Mentoring someone could affect in a small way. But still, you have a good feeling inside.

I still have to do:

1. My forgotten PDH homework.
2. NaNoWriMo - 5,702 words
3. Memorise my words for the play.
4. Japanese Study for a quiz tomorrow.
5. Still, Japanese study for assessment task on Friday.
6. Maths assessment.

6 things to do in 6 days. T.T -imatates cave people- "Me no likey". Haha, I got to say, I should pace myself and get some energy drink to keep me awake. I don't like those energy drinks like V or Red Bull, maybe when I do my HSC and start studying my pants off. I am not able to fully appreciate Tea or Coffee (after nearly two weeks in Japan, I am not a big fan of Green Tea).

Reading: New Moon (Stephanie Meyer), Loving Richard Feynman (Penny Tangey) and Heaven's net is Wide (Lian Hearn)
Watching: News
Word Count: 4,380
Daily "Left": 5,702
Overall "Left": 45,620

Love
DoomAngelKitty