Do you even know why I am continuing with this?

I get that every time I press 'log on' into Blogger. Why I am writing this? Am I talking to myself in this cyber world? Why would anyone follow a 15 year old girl who tells about how 'fasinating' or 'how boring' her life is? I might be a thousand, or more, kilometres away from you, the reader, but I still want to have a say, freedom of speech you would like to say, about how I am coping with the big, bad world that lies beyond my lawn, my house, and even my tiny room upstairs (I feel like Harry now). To see it through my tiny, blue eye, how life could be so 'scary' to a 15 going on 16 girl who hasen't be able to drive, drink alcohol or move out yet or appricieate the freedom like some people who are now adults. Scary huh?

I day dream a lot in class, like most teenagers do on a school day at their boringest class ever imaginable. I day dream about a lot of things, involving me trying to impersenate Lady GaGa and counting down to end of class (I start doing that with half an hour to go and start getting agitated and loosing focus at 15 minutes to go). Who doesn't do that anyway? No teacher actually picks it up and says it on my report saying "Sinead has been day dreaming in my class. Way. Too. Much." I mean, they NEVER DO PICK IT UP! They just comment on the fact that I need to ask questions more or I need to get into class descussions or I need to talk more. I just need to have extra time to 'flower' and master the skills of being a talking air-head in class so the teachers would write down that I ask questions and more socialised. Great... Next time they would say that I need to ask and talk less...

Signing off,
DoomAngelKitty

13 Reasons Why I Hate You

"I was always an entertainer.

I was a ham as a little girl and I am a ham today."

---Lady GaGa

Yeah, I agree with you. How does thirteen reasons why I hate you got to do with Lady Gaga? I keep on thinking about the fact that the two don't mix unless if you count as the normal Lady GaGa as a teen, she got bullied at school and was never popular (I read an interview of her in Dolly magazine) and now she is using her fame for good rather than evil. Then the 13 reasons why I hate you does fit into that story.

I got a letter about being an exchange student. The thing is I have no clue if mum would let me go on it. I left it on her bed, with post it notes saying, "We will see how it goes, if it not, there is always next year" and "I'm only going for 2 months so I won't 'miss' you or school'. She just came down stairs and laughed and said, "I would thought about it if you said that I love you (meaning to her)". But I said in defence, "You weren't suggested by the love hearted post it notes". Now she is thinking about it in 2011/12 summer holidays. T.T'

I finished "Thirteen Reasons Why" by Jay Asher. It's his debut novel. Once I read it, I thought Jay was writing for years. It's about a boy named Clay and he recieved a series of casette taps, recorded by Hannah Barker, whom took her own life just two weeks before. Clay learns the reasons why Hannah committed suicide, one of the reasons was because of him. It was so good to read! I read for an hour straight and done half the book.

Signing off

DoomAngelKitty

I HAVE OFFICIALLY HAVE SKYPE

Yes, the title says it all. I HAVE OFFICIALLY HAVE SKYPE! Oh my, it's should say "I HAVE OFFICIALLY HAVE NO LIFE OUTSIDE THE INTERNET!" All because I have (yes I am going to list them all and you are going to sit and read and feel happier that you have a proper life):

• Facebook
• YouTube
• Twitter
• Blogger
• Neopets account
• Skype
• MSN
• MySpace
• Interpals account
• Mosman blogger

Yes, 10 internet famous accounts on the internet. I have officially no life because of it. No, I won't accept your friend request, nor do I want to talk (this is an example) to a 49 y.o man who wants to show his part to me or wants me to be his wife from Turkey (it actually did happen, but I clicked, 'Report', 'Block' and 'delete'). So, now you got it people of the wider world outside my house?

But Skye is REALLY, REALLY, REALLY confusing. I am slowly getting use to it. The purpose of me getting skype was seeing friends that I haven't talk to or seen properly since my early days of primary school and my friends who live outside Australia who I really want to talk to and see face to face, in a way. It's kind of like using skye to see relatives who live in Africa or somewhere in Europe.

Signing off

DoomAngelKitty

APRIL - The Green Month

When I wake up

the dream isn't done.

I wanna see your face,

and I know that I made it home.

If nothing is true,

What more can I do?

I am still painting flowers for you.

--- Painting Flowers by All Time Low

I haven't blogged for a long time. I AM SO SORRY! School has just ended and during my first term of year ten, it was getting a little bit hectic. At one point I had eight assessments out of ten subjects that I am forced/chose to do. If you don't know, I have to choose two subjects that I want to take as an elective (Visual Arts & Japanese) and the other eight, I am forced to do because of the stupid Board of Studies told me too/school told me too (English, Science, Mathematics (5.1-5.2), Religion And Values Education (RAVE), PDH, PE, Geography and History). Too... much... subjects.. I am so looking forward to when I can drop the majority of these subjects.

On Thursday it was April Fools' Day. My goodness! I actually succeed in a way by telling people that it was my last day here because I was going to go on a ten month exchange to Japan. Some people were fooled by it so much, I just didn't tell them that it was a joke. Others, I just burst out laughing like few seconds after their reaction. It was so funny! My teacher fell for it so much that she pretty much hated me afterwards as a joke. xD

Signing off,

DoomAngelKitty

Dear Life, I simply hate how you made 'death'

"You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing.

I wove webs for you because I liked you. After all,

what's life anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die.

A spider's life can't help being something of a mess,

with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you,

perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows

anyone's life can stand a little of that."

---E.B White ("Charlotte's Webb")

Okay, today is the third anniversry (6th March) of my father's death. I was crying the night before because I feel so empty. I was closer to my dad than mum and that will never change (sorry mum). I have to take my mind off the whole thing between my dad's death and not having a strong (I think it's a weak relationship) with mum and deciding not really to have that strong relationship due to personal reasons. Then on Sunday is mum's and dad's wedding anniversery. I need to think something else than actually crying
my head off.

I guess I will leave you with this "Life is like an hourglass. Eventually, everything hits the bottom and all you have to do is wait it out until someone comes along and turns it around."

Signing off,
Doom

Dear immune system

Dear immune system,

I would like to thank you for giving me nearly a week of torture with uncontrollable sneezing and coughing, re-occuring headaches, a throat for 10 - 15 hours of pain whenever I swallowed or drank something and making me look like a diseased panda (no offense to panda enthusiasts or pandas themselves).

Thank you for also missing three school days in which could be more entertaining than watching old episodes of Dr Phil, Ellen and Oprah or me procrastinating on where or no to write a practice essay about satire in Animal Farm. I am now feeling like I am going to die from this bored and pain that you made me go through.

I hope you fail me again in the near future,
Doom

Friendship is love

"We wil be friends,

as long as stars twinkle in the sky,

as long as angles are there up high,

'till oceans run dry,

and till the day I die."

Friendship is suppose to be heaven. But we do fight as friends, that's why I sort of think it's part of a healthy friendship if we fight, it makes us stronger and test us to the limits.

I use to be friends in kindergarten (Kindergarten 2000) and I was friends with this girl called Katie Stewart (I think that was her last name). It's been a decade since I last saw her and I still remember one memory I asked her during class how old she was. She was going to turn five while others were going to turn six (we have Pre-Kindergarten at my school and normally students in Pre-Kindergarten were turning five). I haven't been in contact with her, she moved somewhere I think and I only remember meeting her once before, a year later when she came to visit us for a day, but after that, we lost track and we never been in contact since then. Did anyone have a similar story to this?

The quote is the same as the picture up the top. I put this on a package for my pen pal's package for her birthday. The quote to me is saying that we will be friends for a long time (or at least forever).